starshinehm's Xanga

Friday, April 07, 2006

Fri, 07 Apr 2006 02:14:34 GMT

In case anyone cares I've decided not to use this xanga site anymore. I have a new one, which uses my other username that I prefer to this old one. So it's Kelisiting.

http://www.xanga.com/kelisiting

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 03:27:20 GMT

I'm goinghave to die thanks to aggregate expenditures being damn near impossible to understand.

I guess I'm not sleeping tonight......grrr...I like sleep more than econ. Grr...

Monday, April 03, 2006

Mon, 03 Apr 2006 16:05:45 GMT

Laura! We should get music minors! They only require 3 courses! Sorry I thought it was funny because two of the three, you and I could pass without ever attending class.

Monday, April 03, 2006

Mon, 03 Apr 2006 15:54:05 GMT

It's been a month so I decided it is time to pretend someone is reading this. So here's the latest update bulletin from me:

As of 04/02/2006

I'm in Heritage Theatre Company's production of My Fair Lady in the chorus. I get to dance with Shawnangie. And even better, Shawn and I have a lift together!

I got offered a job at Wells Fargo as a teller, which I turned down, because afterall why wouldn't I want a steady normal job with less drama and situations that make my mind spin in circles? That also happened to pay more. Yeah, I'm special that way. So I'm still at Caribou.

I'm single. I"m taking this bit a lot better than I thought I would to be honest. Maybe it hasn't hit me yet since it isn't a who dumped who situation. We'll see. Watch in three hours I'll be bawling my eyes out! (because that's so my style)

Caribou Coffee has coffee flavoured ice cream which is actually pretty good. Stop at Lunds or Byerlys to pick some up!

I got a B on an econ exam that I not only didn't study for, nor read the chapter for, but I didn't even show up for the class!

Questions? Comments? Cool! TTYL!

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Tue, 07 Mar 2006 05:07:59 GMT

So I tried to quit my job, and my manager laughed at me and said "Forget it, I won't let you quit". So I'm not sure if that was good or bad. I suppose it is good.

Friday, March 03, 2006

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 04:17:35 GMT

I've told people not to underestimate me before. And somehow people always do. They really shouldn't, because I might surprise you. I'm more aware of things than I'm given credit for.

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 15:59:12 GMT

Life is full of amazing revelations. I sometimes underestimate fate and how it is able to make things work out. It doesn't mean I'll change; I'm far too meticulous for that. But I have to marvel the way things turned out. Of course the bad enws is that's three days of class down the drain for nothing. *shake head*

Saturday, February 18, 2006

Sat, 18 Feb 2006 23:29:27 GMT

So I'm not mad. I'm not happy about it, duh! But I can't blame him, he deserves better than that. Cheap ass bastard people who don't appreciate what they have. But my suspicions are confirmed. She's definitely out to get me at work. And fuck this--I'm not being run out just because of some slut who's threatened by me. She wants a fight, well she can have fun because I'm not four years old anymore and I graduated from this kind of high school drama last year and I'm reallynot interested in reinacting it all.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 15:05:43 GMT

Here's to bandwagon jumping. Take ten seconds please! I realize blunt isn't an option there though.

http://kevan.org/johari?name=Kelisiting

Friday, February 10, 2006

Fri, 10 Feb 2006 15:53:28 GMT

I think from now on I am not allowed to get mad at people until I've talked to them. *Hangs head*. It's hard to catch me offguard but there's one person that knows how to do it everytime. Part of it makes me smile, but I have a lot of thinking to do.

In some ways I feel amazing. It's hard not to be honored and flattered by good things, but unfortunately they always come with big decisions. And noone should make it for you, even though people might try to. I know what I want. The second the decision was in front of me I knew what I wanted to say. A year and a half ago when I was hired, Jonah said to go home and really think about whether I really wanted to work there and if I really wanted it. I knew already I wanted it then. That's exactly how I felt yesterday. But a year and half ago I went home and called back a day later saying I still wanted it. I don't need to decide in a day and there's never a deadline, but patience has never been my strong point. Contentment isn't my style, I'm always ready for what's next. So the question is, what is next? I want it, I can do it, the only thing blocking the road is whether I should. Either way someone is going to be unhappy. I get the impression this is one of those moments where you are supposed to do what makes you happy, not others. But others tend to have a large say in what is possible.